Banished. Again.

So now that Wizard has successfully defended his dissertation (I wrote “situation” originally.  Am I alone in finding this hilarious?), and is a DOCTOR, but not the kind that makes a lot of $$$, we’ve been trying this thing where as soon as he gets home from work I pass him The Baby, and he [...]

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So…how’s it going?

I’ve written a page in a week.  I cannot work in short bursts.  I cannot.  I try, but I can’t write.  I can think, and jot, but not compose.
Translation: I am seriously fucked.
My advisor, bless her “no babies before dissertations!” heart, has been nothing but absolutely supportive.  She’s a feminist theorist, so I had every [...]

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Code Name: Mona

My mother-in-law is here, and will be in-residence through the middle of October.
Ahem.
I don’t go in for the classic MIL hatred partly because it’s a bullshit girl-on-girl crime sort of thing, a relationship shortcut that refuses to recognize the reality of female relationships in their full range of animosity/love.  Partly I just don’t have that [...]

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How to Write a Dissertation after Having a Baby

I don’t know how to write a dissertation after having a baby.  I truly don’t.  But I titled the post as such to lure here those of my ilk, the other parents and caregivers of children who have dissertations to write and babies to raise.
See, every once in a while I google that phrase above, [...]

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Photo Friday

Some people are very good at weekly features.  I’m not one of them.  But I am in favor of keeping this whole posting thing going, so here are some baby feet from back in April:

By the way, I’ve done two work-positive things this week:  I’ve committed to the diss. writing group at school and have [...]

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Hiding

I had the much-dreaded meeting with my advisor on Monday.  It didn’t go as badly as it could have, partly because I bluffed a little on what I’ve been doing with the three months since I passed my proposal.  Wait, make that four months.  Anyway, she wants a draft of a chapter before I have [...]

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Is it still a swing when it crashes to the ground?

I am so royally fucked, and I’m depressed about my state of affairs, which makes me want to crawl back into bed, which has necessitated the drinking of coffee, which I feel bad about because it’s bad for the baby.
So I have two major problems.
Problem One:  We are completely unprepared for the possible impending I-hope-so [...]

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I’m thinking about the dissertation today.

Because I have to.
Yesterday I got the “so, when are you sending me a chapter?” email.  I couldn’t exactly tell the truth, which is “I don’t have a chapter yet,” but I couldn’t lie and say something like “it’s almost done” because then I’d have to bang something out really fast, and I don’t think [...]

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Quick Update, for the Childfree

So I FINALLY told my childfree friend about the contents of my uterus.  For the love of god, it’s the third trimester.  It’s about time.
Anyway, all my fretting was pointless.  Paraphrase:  “I don’t like kids, but I’m happy for my friends when they’re happy with their decision.”  There was a wee “You did plan this, [...]

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What I was trying to say before.

I admit to being cryptic in that last post, but not by design. It was more of a cryptic-by-exhaustion sort of thing.
I’m stuck in a state of perpetual in-between-ness. Looking back at the beginnings of this blog, I realized that when I started, on June 26th,I was just about a month away from finding [...]

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